Life and Pain

I just felt lead to write tonight. I'm not sure why, but I did. My heart is heavy burdened for a friend of mine that I wish so much I could wrap in my arms and hold as she so lovingly takes care of her dying sister. I have temptations to just jump a plane and fly to her to help her, abandoning all the responsibilities I have. Some say that's what makes me a good doctor--I feel things. Sometimes, it's just plain hard. The resource I lean on now is praying so fervently, as I haven't prayed in so long, that the Lord will meet her needs where I can't right now. That He will wrap her in His arms, which are so much bigger than mine, and comfort her and her sister, even this night. That the peace that passes ALL understanding, will guard their hearts and minds in Christ Jesus in a way that they have never experienced before. I want to cry with them, sigh with them, love on them, just be there. I will need to rely on the omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent God of the universe to do that for me. I sincerely think He's up to the task and meeting all the other needs He knows of that I don't in my finite little brain and soul. He has promised to never leave us nor forsake us, that He will be with us to the end of the age. I rely on that promise tonight for you, my dear sister. Know that I have tears as I pray for you tonight.