I realized tonight that the cancer thing is bothering me more than I want to let on. I don't know if it's because I'm trying to make up the hours I'll miss, that it's the Big C, or something else. Maybe a combination of all of them. I've been focused at work, but now I've lost another buddy as she broke her arm. Sometimes we felt like the only Christians there anyway, now I'm alone. Such is the icey world of the here and now (and I know you folks in TX don't miss it!). We're supposed to get more snow the next 2 days, making it unlikely I will be going to the next town over to work on Christmas Eve, but I know I have the backup of here, since there's plenty of work here to be done. If not then, over Fri and Sat when I'm "off". Keeping busy can be helpful, I think, but I don't want to be reeling by Jan 19. I have to be able to think straight to pack the right stuff for a week, like laundry soap, books, and the game I got my hubby for Christmas that he doesn't know about yet. It's a John Deere Monopoly game. I thought maybe I could keep him entertained some in the hospital with a new toy.
I will try to look at his one day at a time. That's the way we're told to do it in the Bible, right? Tomorrow and yesterday take care of themselves, focus on today, and don't worry about it either. The reins belong to somebody else. I better get off here before he sees what I got him for Christmas.
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